How do they do it, the ones who make love
without love? Beautiful as dancers,
gliding over each other like ice-skaters
over the ice, fingers hooked
inside each other’s bodies, faces
red as steak, wine, wet as the
children at birth whose mothers are going to
give them away. How do they come to the
come to the come to the God come to the
still waters, and not love
the one who came there with them, light
rising slowly as steam off their joined
skin? These are the true religious,
the purists, the pros, the ones who will not
accept a false Messiah, love the
priest instead of the God. They do not
mistake the lover for their own pleasure,
they are like great runners: they know they are alone
with the road surface, the cold, the wind,
the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio-
vascular health–just factors, like the partner
in the bed, and not the truth, which is the
single body alone in the universe
against its own best time.

Start: May 3rd
End: August 31st

Bold- Completed
Italics- In Progress

1. The Six Wives of Henry VIII by Alison Weir
2. The Life of Elizabeth I by Alison Weir
3. The Never Ending Story by
4. Eleanor of Aquataine by Alison Weir
5. Isabel of Castille by Nancy Stewart
6. Founding Brothers by Joseph J. Ellis
7. John Adams by David McCullough
8. FDR by Jean Edward Smith
9. Gandhi and Churchill by Arthur Herman
10. Gandhi: an autobiography
11. Freedom from Exile by the Dalai Lama
12. Helen Keller

TITLE: There's My Heart in a Picture Frame part 2/?
AUTHOR: mal_in_np
CHARACTERS/PAIRING: Jared/Jensen, mention of Jensen/David, Mike, Alona, Chad, Christian Kane.
RATING: PG-13... for now
DISCLAIMER: Not mine.
BETA: unbeated for now
NOTES: This takes place in Manhattan so there are a few references to places that may not be obvious to everyone, but I don't think they too pretentious or distracting.
SUMMARY: Jared is a college freshman in New York City trying to figure things out and Jensen is a junior, photography major at an art school. What happens when they meet at a party?

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TITLE: There's My Heart in a Picture Frame
AUTHOR: mal_in_np 
CHARACTERS/PAIRING: Jared/Jensen, Mike Rosenbaum, Alona Tal, David Boreanaz, Chad, Christian Kane.
RATING: PG-13... for now
DISCLAIMER: Not mine.
BETA: moralimperative 
NOTES: This takes place in Manhattan so there are a few references to places that may not be obvious to everyone, but I don't think they too pretentious or distracting.
SUMMARY: Jared is a college freshman in New York City trying to figure things out and Jensen is a junior, photography major at an art school. What happens when they meet at a party?

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Pros:
I get a raise from last summer
Hours are 8:30-12:30 so that leaves me plenty of time for afternoon classes.
It would reimburse me from the trip to London and pay for my tickets into the city for classes.
I'd feel better working than not work especially only 20 hours a week and barely any commute.

Cons:
My mom doesn't want me to.
I don't technically need the money.
I'd be extremely busy with London, two classes and work.

2/2/09- Begin first day at Suffolk
2/5/09 or 2/12- go visit New Paltz
5/18/09- Last day at Suffolk
5/20/09ish- Go to London
5/27/09- First online session at New Paltz for The Beats
07/01/09ish- Come back from London
7/17/09- HBP
Mid-July or Beginning of August- First day of Sign Class
7/29/09- Last online session for The Beats
8/17- My Birthday
8/19- Go Back to School
End of August- Last session of sign class

My goal is to read 5 books over my winter break. I've already been home for almost 10 days now and I've read one book. Here is my current list of books: My Book List

"What do I long for?" should be a core question for you -- always, of course, but especially in 2009. Are you adventurous enough to look beyond the status symbols your ego is attached to and the transitory wishes that constantly flit through your imagination? If so, you'll prime yourself to establish a root connection with your soul's deepest yearnings. And when you're in daily touch with those primal motivators, the obstacles in your life will seem less overwhelming; the lies you tell yourself will dissolve; and you will consistently have crisp intuitions about what your next move must be. Life may not necessarily be a breeze, but it'll be profoundly magical.

1. Take a Tour of CUNY Hunter
2. Eat at Crif Dogs
3. Read 5 fiction books for FUN!
4. Go to Texas!!!

...more to come

Explain your favorite things and why:

1. Flower: Tiger lilies- they mean "I dare you to love me."  That's quite a statement.  When I was younger I would always make my mom pull over on the side of the road so I could pick some of the wild ones that grow in season.

2. Food: Easter bread.  It's a family tradition- you bake it and it's the best tasting food when it's fresh out of the oven.

3. Picnic food: Sandwich.  I know, real original.

4. Mixed drink: Apple-tini or an Asian-tini, a drink my brother invented for me on my 18th birthday.

5. Kind of student to teach: Kid who's open-minded and wants to learn.

6. Hobby you do or wish you still did: Drawing

7. Animal to have as a pet: Cat or dog. 

8. Halloween costume you have worn: Ooo! Raphael from the teenage mutant ninja turtles when I was 5, Robin Hood when I was 7, and Wednesday Adams when I was 10!!!

9. Kind of dessert: Chocolate cookies, cake, any kind of ice cream.  I have a huge sweet tooth.

10. Ice cream flavor: Vanilla with chocolate and peanut butter pieces in it.

11. Vacation spot: Prague.  I've never been, but I imagine I would love it.

12. Mindsweep.  It's an addiction.

13. Reality show: Top Chef, Iron Chef, Top Model.

14. Childrens movie: Beauty and the Beast with Little Mermaid as a close second.

15. Season: Spring and Fall, but winter is nice when it snows and summer is sunny.

Hi there, here is the interpretation of the astrological chart that you asked for. Also attached is a .GIF graphic file which depicts your chart wheel. Thank you for visiting the Astrolabe WEB site at http://alabe.com


Rising Sign is in 29 Degrees Cancer
Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected. (This whole section is spookily spot on!)

Sun is in 24 Degrees Leo.
More than a bit of a showoff, you love to be the center of attention! But others do not usually mind because they tend to enjoy your genuine warmth and affection. Very spirited and willful, proud and self-important at times, you demand your own way. You are quite honest, however, and the respect of others is very important to you. You never compromise yourself and you pursue your goals with persistence and dedication. Your regal presence and demeanor draws you to positions of leadership and authority. But beware of being overly hardheaded, domineering, ostentatious or patronizing or you will lose the goodwill and admiration that you enjoy. Very theatrical, you live life on a grand scale wherever and whenever possible. Your strength and energy vitalizes those who come in contact with you.

Moon is in 16 Degrees Libra.
Affectionate, warm and friendly, life must be a "beautiful" experience for you. Unpleasantness should be avoided at all costs. You tend to overlook other people's faults and you would rather give in than fight. You are uncomfortable with strangers, but at ease and sociable with friends and associates. Indeed, you would rather socialize than work -- you can use your prodigious charm to avoid unpleasant tasks. You need the support and assistance of another in order to get you started on any new project -- you are not a self-starter. Be careful of a tendency to be overly self-indulgent (i.e., lazy). Your refined aesthetic sensibilities attract you to music, dance, art and any other cultured activity.

Mercury is in 08 Degrees Virgo.
Very thorough and efficient, you pay attention to the minor but important details of any project. You are a careful thinker who can learn complicated, intricate techniques. You are attracted to practical, useful skills and are probably good at working with your hands. You are very critical of yourself and others, sometimes too much so, and you get the reputation of being a nag or of being nit-picky. Your first reaction to any situation is to try to organize, classify and analyze everything!

Venus is in 08 Degrees Cancer.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.

Mars is in 10 Degrees Aries.
You are very independent and self-assertive, and you have lots of physical energy. You are not satisfied unless you can be the first to do something. As such, you are more comfortable in leadership positions than you are as an underling. When you are challenged by anyone for anything, you delight in the competitive process and will fight long and hard for your beliefs. You are bold and courageous and often act without thinking. At times, in your zeal to get ahead, you are tactless and offensive -- learn that cooperation with others can often bring you nearer to your goals quicker because of the support you will get.

Jupiter is in 03 Degrees Gemini.
You have a logical, detached, objective view of most things. Your interests are wide-ranging and you are an avid student, with expertise in many different areas. You love to work things out in your mind -- everything you do is reduced to an exercise in logic and reason. You have the ability to grasp abstractions and to deal successfully with the larger issues of life. Your overemphasis on developing your powerful intellect can cause your emotional and intuitive abilities to atrophy unless you consciously choose to exercise them.

Saturn is in 26 Degrees Sagittarius.
Basically quite conservative, you respect traditional authority figures and are very thankful and supportive of the laws and institutions which govern your life. You learn and accept new ideas only after having very thoroughly examined them. Ideals and abstract concepts are important to you only if they can be used in some practical fashion. You are so practical and so orderly that you have natural skills in planning, administrating and organizing.

Uranus is in 27 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 07 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 09 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 14 Degrees Pisces.
You're attracted to others who need your assistance. You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!

Your result for The Heart Test...

Heart of Gold

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